I discovered recently that some people in my life think I’m faking my pain or exaggerating it or that I’m just being lazy. This hurt because I fight against it daily in every move I make or don’t make. I hate not being able to do the things I once could. Being able to not need help… I have severe degeneration in at least one disc in my back along with herniating and bulging discs which is compressing on my sciatica abs inflaming my SI joints. At any given moment, I have severe burning down either leg along with intense pain with literally every movement I make. My back and SI joints are in poor shape for a 48 year old. So much so that I’m now being referred to a neurosurgeon for consultation. So when I heard the words being said it hurt in an all new way. I know most people haven’t seen the effects this has had
Social phobias are the most common types of phobias, and they are endless. Examples are talking in groups or even starting conversations. Public speaking. Meeting new people. Talking to authority figures. Eating or drinking in front of others. Regular trips out to the stores or banks. Sitting in a classroom. Going to work. Just to name a few. A Social phobia is an intense anxiety of fear of being judged, negatively evaluated, or rejection in a social or performance situation. Have you experienced any of these? For me I have a few experiences but this post is more about being the mom of someone with extreme social phobias. One of my boys is affected by social phobia and anxiety to the point that he was home schooled because going into a classroom became to hard for him. Going to a store and purchasing something on his own was huge step he took when he was 14. Riding transportation to appointments
I’ve sat down and wrote out a list of things I want to discuss on here over the next few weeks. Topics like depression, fears, health, anxiety, jealousy, self-esteem, social media and more. The objective is to 1-keep this place active. Life had taken hold and really distracted me and I want to get back to the purpose of this space. 2-educate. We all can learn more daily and I am hoping to help someone, at least one person, with my posts. 3- so the readers can learn more about, even as I am discovering more about myself. I hope to see you around the blog as these topics start rolling out. If there is something in particular you’d like to read about… let me know! I’m open for suggestions anytime.
When you are finally allowed to be yourself an get complete acceptance its the most amazing feeling ever. Growing up I was always the ‘black sheep’ along with one of my cousins. Her and I were the two outsiders in our family. We didn’t look like anyone in our families and we got worst of the treatments from many of the elders in the family. As adults we’ve worked hard to break the cycles of accepting the difference in our family members and most our children. Acceptance allows the individual to grow with positive self-esteem and allows them to grow into better adults. Remember to always respect the differences of others and accept them for those. Knowing that I am accepted for who I am without reservation gives me strength to show the world, and not hide behind a facade. The more real a person can be the better that person will be.
Photo credit link I’ve had it on my mind today to talk about inner peace and how important it is to be true to oneself over anything else and then I saw this graphic (above) and knew this was the topic of the day! My mind never rests… a troublesome thing but I think it keeps me sane. When I woke this morning, the thoughts of how I’ve changed over the last ten years weighed heavily on my soul, the most positive way possible. All my life, I’ve been told what to think, how to feel, how to believe. I’ve rebelled against it all and questioned nearly everything all my life! I was that kid that if you say don’t do it, I did it to spite you! I was always considered trouble and never felt like I belonged. My mother raised me up in four branches of the christian faith all while telling me about the gods and goddesses and incorporating
This week marked the push of book #12 for me! This little story first started out as a short story for an anthology, but as time went on the event was canceled. I couldn’t let the story die off, it was too sweet to do that to so I rewrote it, expanding it to a full length story and voila…Bonded was born! A sweet romance between sprites and humans with a baseball theme aspect! Cover Designer: Stella Price Genre: Sports Romance / Urban Fantasy Blurb: Growing up without a father was hard for Shae, she never had that bond or love, but her mother made sure she rarely wanted for anything. Shae isn’t one of the girls, she’s one of the guys, and as their prized pitcher, the Pierce Pirates depend on Shae to help them secure their championship titles. One day while playing against a team that if defeated will lead them to state, Shae thinks she sees something shimmering
Multifaceted (fantasy / supernatural) A transformation that takes the smallest of elements and turns it into a sentient being that influences humans according to their desires. Will it ever tell it’s secret? Multifaceted will be free on Amazon for three today – 11/21-23/18!!! Happy Reading! https://amzn.to/2S02Fck
This week I sent my end book through to be published. I then shared the new cover on Facebook…and thought I should share here as well! A Moment of Darkness is Book three of The Chronicles of Elizabeth Fairbairn. The blurb is: Elizabeth fought with her father to save the coven with The Veil’s help and succeeded. She secured the peace her coven desired but failed to find her own. Wesley and his family disappeared before the battle and left her feeling abandoned, broken. Her soul rages with emotions and magic she still hasn’t mastered. Living in a world she barely understands, the one person who is there for her is the one she should stay away from. Will the lure of the darkness be overcome or will she give in? What do you think? I’d love your opinions! It’ll be available on Amazon soon.
Mom, I know you have been gone for quite some time now, almost twelve years, but I still have the