The reality of things

I discovered recently that some people in my life think I’m faking my pain or exaggerating it or that I’m just being lazy. This hurt because I fight against it daily in every move I make or don’t make. I hate not being able to do the things I once could. Being able to not need help… I have severe degeneration in at least one disc in my back along with herniating and bulging discs which is compressing on my sciatica abs inflaming my SI joints. At any given moment, I have severe burning down either leg along with intense pain with literally every movement I make. My back and SI joints are in poor shape for a 48 year old. So much so that I’m now being referred to a neurosurgeon for consultation. So when I heard the words being said it hurt in an all new way. I know most people haven’t seen the effects this has had

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Self-Esteem

The struggles in today’s world with self-esteem seem endless. In the article , Society and its Effect of Self Esteem, write Kayla Zarate wrote “Society surrounds us. It’s the people in our classroom, family at home, strangers on the street. It’s our lives as they pass us by. It’s everything in the world. Most importantly, it’s a monster. People struggle to become what society depicts as “beautiful” when true beauty actually lies within. Society’s image of what is beautiful and what isn’t is the cause of many low self-esteems and negative self-images when they could be positive and confident.” Girls and Boys alike are given outrageous examples to strive towards. I, myself, was treated as if I were fat growing up. I am five foot three inches and at that time weighed one hundred and five pounds. I was told I was getting fat and that no one wanted a fat girl. I was called ‘thunder thighs’ because I’m built

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Over the next few weeks…

I’ve sat down and wrote out a list of things I want to discuss on here over the next few weeks. Topics like depression, fears, health, anxiety, jealousy, self-esteem, social media and more. The objective is to 1-keep this place active. Life had taken hold and really distracted me and I want to get back to the purpose of this space. 2-educate. We all can learn more daily and I am hoping to help someone, at least one person, with my posts. 3- so the readers can learn more about, even as I am discovering more about myself. I hope to see you around the blog as these topics start rolling out. If there is something in particular you’d like to read about… let me know! I’m open for suggestions anytime.

BOOK REVIEW: Hattie’s Spirit by MK Mancos

For Kara St. Ives, seeing and hearing the dead is all part of the daily grind. A deathbed promise to her Aunt Hattie has Kara traveling to the town of Cooper’s Mill, North Carolina to right a wrong sixty years and hundreds of miles away. Add to that the fact even as a vocal ghost, Hattie isn’t divulging the reasons for her exile from her hometown, and it’s one big mystery that will take a whole lot of patience and a little dash of magic to solve. Now, if the sexy local preacher, Roth Andrews, would stop interfering, Kara might be able to put Hattie’s spirit to rest for good. This is not my first book from Mancos. She has impressed upon me with her ability to pull me into the story without me even realizing it. Fantasy and Paranormal are my thing, so how can I go wrong. Her character development is on point – I mean you can

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Let’s talk about trust

Trust is defined as – firm belief in the reliability, truth, ability, or strength of someone or something. Trust isn’t something we throw around like bird seed at a park. Nope its something that builds over time. Days, weeks, months, and even years. The longer you can trust someone the stronger the bond becomes. But here is the kicker… it only takes one action to break down that invisible bond that was as solid as a brick wall. When that action happens everything crumbles. This week that happened to me twice. Bonds that I thought were strong were discovered to be false. As each day goes by, I now question ever word and action that was ever said by those who broke their bonds with me. I’m a forgiver. I wasn’t always. Over the decades I’ve learned to forgive. Now mind you, I don’t forgive for the other persons sake. OH NO!!!! I forgive for my own. BUT I don’t

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Never leave a task undone

That is a blanket title I know but today I’m talking more about your medical bills. Know that even though technology runs nearly everything that humans still stand behind the machines and therefore mistakes happen. When you see a doctor or specialists or have tests run or procedures completed, don’t pay a bill just because it was sent to you. In the last 30 days I’ve had bills adding up to more than $1k sent to me. I was diligent and looked up the EOBs (Explanation of Benefits) to verify my portions due! I owed nothing! Either time! Human error. If you have bills and don’t understand them call someone for help. Don’t let the bill sit and fester like a wound that ill rot of an appendage and eventually land on your credit or worse, prevent you from future treatments. Take care of it. Make a few calls. Get things looked at. Never leave a task undone.